Delaying the Inevitable

Thinking is a scary thing. Especially for me.... At 3am... Because around that time, all the same thoughts float around in my head (kinda like "the voices" but without all the psychological implications) and give me all these terrible ideas. Those who know me well know EXACTLY what I'm talking about. I promise they aren't actually bad things though. Just... Well.... Dorky, shy, ridiculous things. And when I say "terrible ideas" it really just means that if I want to keep some of my dignity when it comes to social interactions, I shouldn't do them.

So here's a bunch of stuff on my mind that will keep me occupied until I'm done writing this post!

This week was a really disappointing week for intramurals... Or I guess I should say that Wednesday was the disappointing day for intramurals. We had our soccer championship game and lost 1-0 in overtime. It wasn't just that, but it shouldn't have ended that way. A fluke goal that should have been stopped, should have been marked, should have been SOMETHING. But it wasn't and we lost. Including that game though, we only had 3 losses throughout the entire season so its not all bad. Still sad though... We worked so hard for that game just to have it slip through our fingers... But next semester Team Zissou will be ready to go and be fully healed for another awesome season!

Broomball ended similarly. Tuesday we won our first round of playoffs, but on Wednesday the other team was just better than us. Plain and simple. So, while that's disappointing, it was to be expected so it wasn't that bad I guess. But we still lost...

I really hate juries. My music jury is now in about 5 days and its FREAKING ME OUT. I've probably explained this before (in a previous post), but for those who are new to my blog and my music life: a music jury is where I select 3 pieces of music (one memorized, one etude, and one classical solo with piano accompaniment) and I go out in the big Davis Concert Hall and perform those pieces for 5-6 studio heads from the music department. Usually its the percussion, trumpet, low brass, horn, and single reed professors that I play in front of. Also, my ENTIRE grade for my private lessons is based on my performance at this one jury, so if I mess it up, there goes my grade down the toilet.

I miss Elika. She's all the way off in Florence, Italy and I still Skype her often, but I can't have midnight ramen time if she isn't here! Plus Denali is missing her hip attachment (which can't be healthy) and everyone around campus is missing one of our favorite people.

The UAF Wind Symphony had a concert yesterday too. I really like playing the horn. Its a magnificent instrument and so few people play it. Now that I look back on it, I think its kind of crazy that I only started playing it last year. Sure I had played trumpet for 8 years beforehand, but horn is a whole new beast and I'm really glad that I took on the challenge and now I have basically the greatest section a musician could ask for. I even had a small solo in this concert!

Our lovely horn section: Amber, me, Jeremiah, and Theresa

Christmas presents are starting to be delivered to people I know as well! So far everyone seems to be happy with what I've picked for them and I even had one person tell me afterwards "You know how to make a person smile!" So I feel very happy with the choices I have made. :D

Yesterday I almost hit a sign with my car too. I slid off the road and went into some deep snow with my right tires and I managed to pull out of it before I hit the speed limit sign. This has kind of made me not want to drive around when its snowing anymore.... But chances are that I'll end up having to go somewhere and then I'll drive again. For the most part though, I've been a safe driver! Take that parents!

Last, but not least, for tonight is an accomplishment of mine. Sure its nerdy, but I have successfully transcribed the Ocean theme from Legend of Zelda: Windwaker for a horn quartet and we are going to start playing it soon so that we can hopefully perform it in a Music at 1 next semester! That would be AWESOME. Plus the program could say "Ocean - Koji Kondo - arr. Quinn Verfaillie" and I would feel all special and stuff.

Fun fact: this didn't keep my attention away from what it meant to for very long....

Oh well... At least its a happy thought :D

"Keep your eye on the prize because if you decide to let your gaze stray, it may not be there when you look back."

Accident Prone

I seem to be really accident/injury prone... It's almost as if I have an injury quota of the day and it usually ends up being filled. In the last week I have had my head bashed into someone's head in soccer, my hand whacked during broomball, a narrow dodge on being punched in the junk, been kicked off of a bed, and frequently I have fallen and hit a desk or something when I try to sit on the floor.

Now I don't quite understand why this happens to me, but it happens quite often...... I think there should be a way to fix it damn it!

Also, tonight I have broomball..... Lets hope I don't become injured tonight.

In rememberance

I've spent some time reflecting on the past recently and just thinking about stuff in general. Its really kind of fun every once in a while. The past is full of all sorts of intellectual treasures, junk piles, and some of those memories you wish you didn't have sometimes. But really when you think of it, every point in your life has had some effect on your life. Whether its how you see people, how you go about your daily life, or how to deal with situations, you have been changed by every moment in your past.

Now being the person that I am, these thoughts have been very random to say the least. Heh, its kind of how I go about things: RANDOMLY. Random is far more enjoyable than predictability in my opinion. So anyways to prove my point, here is a small sampling of what has been traveling through my brain recently:
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I can totally still remember my first crush. Her name was Emily Corlette and that was waaaayyy back in the 4th grade. I lived in Williamsburg, Virginia at the time and she was super cute. I can still remember what she looked like too. She was taller than I was (yes back in the day I was a short little kid), blonde, and had braces. I don't remember too much else other than the fact that I gave her a huge stuffed dog on the last day of school and moved shortly thereafter.

Running long distances is a freaking fantastic way to not only get in shape, but to mellow a confused brain out. That "runner's high" is just what I need sometimes to just take a deep breath (or quite a few since it takes a while) and think about things as well as send those wonderful endorphins coursing through my brain. It is a magical feeling and I urge everyone to go and do it sometime. Plus its a much better alternative to just sitting around and being confused or frustrated. Put that energy to good use and fix it for yourself! I want to try and run at least 5k every other day to stay in shape and out of confusion.

Dry ice bombs (and by bomb I mean pressure expansion.... no real explosives involved) are a cheap way to hear a big bang and watch gallon jugs of water fly into the air. The materials to make a decent sized one will really only cost you about $2.50 or so which is pretty amazing considering how much fun you can have with them.

Likealittle is a hilarious website and I have yet to regret being one of the founding members of it. Anonymous flirting may seem kind of strange at first, but really once you get in to it, its a ton of fun and the possibilities are practically endless. Plus the amusement of watching what other people say and being able to comment on it makes it all the better! Plus if you are the one doing the flirting, they'll never know its you.... (Unless one of your friends happens to be Elika who can read your mind and analyze your writing. Then people might know it was you.)

I think I need more techno music in my days. The beat is strong, the electronic music is playing, and it keeps me in my own little world sometimes. The kind of world where all I have to focus on is the repetition of the music and keeping the beat strong. I love techno/electronica music.

Physics lives in the world of make believe... I refuse to make up data by conforming to significant figures and problems that have the disclaimers of "Assume there is no friction, no air resistance, the pulley and the string are massless, and every system is a closed system" are stupid. This will NEVER happen in real life.

The pen is superior to the pencil.

For anyone who hasn't yet: go take the Library Science competency test in the Testing Center. That class is a waste and the test is so freaking easy if you have ever found a book in the library before.

The three best movies I have seen lately are (in order from the best to the "still awesome but not the best"): Scott Pilgrim vs the World, Inception, Avatar.

My core friends group keeps life so much more interesting here at college. I'm glad they are there :) Now if only they all didn't live down in the other dorm (minus 1). It makes Moore a lonely place sometimes. But then I go bother people on my floor (yes that means you especially Kris. BOTHER).
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All of that only scratches the surface of my thoughts, but alas, it is what it is.

C'est la vie.