Spirals

You know, if you really think about it, a spiral is nothing but a 3 dimensional circle (if you see it that way).

And that's how I feel at the moment. Its just one giant spiral of emotions. Its going in a direction, but its always the same circle of thoughts... And I do my best to change them, to ignore them, to fight them. But it feels like fighting a grease fire with water. I have the right idea, just the results aren't exactly what they should be.

That fire still burns just as hot as it did 5 minutes ago, but I'm running out of water.

A man, a plan, a canal, Panama.

I see it's been a while since I was last on here.... Strange. Anyways, here's a recap on the last 3 weeks of my life.

-I went to Homer, it was pretty fun.
-Valdez is still absolutely no fun.
-I started house-sitting at a new place.
-Working soccer camp and my regular job at the same time is still a bad idea.
-Shampooing carpets in the middle of summer smells awful and makes everything twice as warm as it should be.
-Blah.

There we go. 3 weeks in a nutshell.

I'm also not sure exactly when I get to leave Valdez anymore... One of our major imaging servers (a Dell/Kace k-2100 if anyone cares to know) basically keeled over and died for no particular reason. FANTASTIC. So that means we hit a standstill and now our new virtual k-2100 isn't exactly doing what its supposed to and I may have to stay in Valdez for longer to help cover the losses. Woot. And so here I am just wishing it all away.

And then some of my energy is going into plan making... I have a problem, I make a plan. Usually lots of them and only half of them are even any good. Too bad I use all of them anyways.... So here's to that as well.

Life will be so much simpler and much more fun once I get to UAF... But in the meantime, I'm surviving.

P.S.
I got an awesome phone call from ELIKA! I was super stoked because she's off living in Coldfoot and took the time to call me :D

Falling Skies

I love the rain.

Whether its just listening to it, walking in it, sitting in it, or even smelling it, rain is fantastic. There was a pretty good rain here last night in Valdez and I just felt like sitting in it. The outside is quiet except for the pitter-patter of raindrops on the concrete, plants, and metal of cars and houses. The bugs aren't out. The air also has that nice humid feel to it without it being the usual stuffy humid of really warm places. For me its a nice way to relax.

And I love the rain.

Proximity

I am:

172 miles away from my girlfriend.
275, 580, and 510 miles away from my best friends.
453, 104, 1311, and 164 miles away from a few of my really good friends.
2958 miles away from my family.
275 miles away from UAF.

Secluded.

A Feeling of Dread

This week is going to be one of the longest weeks ever.... So in addition to the 8 hours of work I do for the school district each day, I will be running (including planning and leading) a soccer camp for little kids here in Valdez. So that's another 3.75 hours a day for Monday - Thursday this week. And as much as I would like to say, "Well I can just take a shorter day right?" I can't. The school pays REALLY well and if they will give me the hours, I will be more than happy to take them because I know I'm planning on a lot of travel expenses this summer. So if I skip lunch by bringing it with me each day this has me working:

7am - 8:30am at the school
8:30am - 12:15pm for the camp
12:15pm - 6:45pm back at the school

The sheer number of hours there is rather intimidating.... And then there is the stress of, "Oh man.... I'm planning a camp that at the moment only has 6 registered kids and I have never done this before and holy crap I am going to be tired by the time Thursday comes around."

I mean, how do you keep 6 kids entertained with soccer for 3 hours in a row for 4 days in a row? That really isn't enough kids to do anything with... At all. Even scrimmages have incredibly few people at that point (assuming none of the kids have hurt themselves or are having temper tantrums and can't/won't play).

Welcome to Hell Week.

And my countdown reads: 18 days, 15 hours, and 22 minutes....

The more you sleep, the less you wait...

My summer (for the most part) is fairly dull. Especially now that I rolled my ankle, its hard to find things to do with my time... I work during the week on a regular schedule (8:30 - 5:30 Monday thru Friday), I come home and play video games in the afternoon, I skype Iris and others before I go to bed, and then I sleep.

Woo. And don't get me wrong, I do like what I do at work so that's usually somewhat entertaining, but for the most part I spend my time longing for school to start back up. This next year is going to be amazing for me. I get to be an RA in Skarland, I'll be able to actually see Iris and everyone else on a daily basis, I won't be hundreds of miles away from my friends, I won't have to buy my own food, I'll have a routine and a set place to stay for more than 3 weeks at a time. It will be like heaven on earth. But for now I just continue to skype and text as much as I can.

I also have 2 trips planned for my summer which I'm SO EXCITED FOR but Valdez tries really hard to mellow me out. Because video games can only keep me entertained for so long... I like hanging out with people more than I like playing video games (by a long shot) and so they get tiring after a while... But they suck up time I guess.

So sleeping is the best form of time travel.

And this is what's in my head at the moment.

Please Wait - Experiencing Technical Difficulties

So I work IT for the school district here and I love most of it. Sure it's a job and it has its ups and downs, but all in all it is totally fun. I spend most days working through the Kbox (our imaging/software updating server) help desk tickets and doing computer repairs. Yeah, its my job to take apart little laptops, mess with the innards, and then put them back together. What's cooler than that???

 

And we have some massive projects for this summer. Like fixing up over 300 laptops (including repairs) for all of the students who are going to have them next year after a year of use by students. That ought to be good. Also, I think we are going to be moving most of the district to Windows 7 from Windows XP which will be AWESOME! I love Windows 7 :D

Also I move into my first house-sitting place tomorrow. It has a doggie! Which makes me laugh because its name is Denali and one of my best friends is named Denali and I'm just going to laugh the entire time about that because I am a mature teenager like that :P

Plus I have a fantastic visitor coming in 6 days, 17 hours, 1 minute, and 10 seconds (at the time of writing this). But who's counting really?

Also I'd like to say thank you to Elika for giving life to my love of countdown timers.